Starting at 4 pm yesterday evening when the stimulator was turned on, there was a sense that the three professionals who stood in front us were "signing off" ---the "rescue" was complete and Rod was invited to go home as a "free man". An overwhelming sense of gratitude flooded through us towards the doctor and the Nevro technician who were saying "goodbye" with the promise of seeing us next week. And yet there was a sense of vulnerability --emotionally and physically towards the new reality that Rod was told would "wash in" slowly over the next 3 days.
Rod says:
I have asked myself many times...."how do I know if the system is working if I can't feel it?" However, over the last 24 hours, I have begun to trust in the changes that I am feeling gradually in my body. Last night, for example, I only woke twice to turn over -- a quality of sleep I have not experienced in years. I also found that when I stood up and walked around, I realized that the pain was diminishing in all of the areas that have been so excruciating for last months and for years before. To top it off, this evening I sat at the dinner table with Susan, Tante Tobia and Alice. It was truly a celebration because it was the first time that I sat at the dinner table and engaged in conversation in more than a year and a half. And yet I feel a sense of hesitancy. I don't want to let my mind run off into all the possibilities before I know what is going to be a sustained reality.
Rod says:
I have asked myself many times...."how do I know if the system is working if I can't feel it?" However, over the last 24 hours, I have begun to trust in the changes that I am feeling gradually in my body. Last night, for example, I only woke twice to turn over -- a quality of sleep I have not experienced in years. I also found that when I stood up and walked around, I realized that the pain was diminishing in all of the areas that have been so excruciating for last months and for years before. To top it off, this evening I sat at the dinner table with Susan, Tante Tobia and Alice. It was truly a celebration because it was the first time that I sat at the dinner table and engaged in conversation in more than a year and a half. And yet I feel a sense of hesitancy. I don't want to let my mind run off into all the possibilities before I know what is going to be a sustained reality.
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